Philippians 4:13

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

I have always doubted on myself and on what I can do. Whenever there's a responsibility that is being given to me, I always feel that there's something lacking in me to perform the task successfully. And perhaps there really is something lacking. But why do I always finish the work being given to me? Its because somebody fills up for what is lacking in me. Somebody so great that words cannot describe. Yes it is Jesus who fills up my incompetence. He always provides. With Him by my side, I shall fear nothing. I can do anything.

I've had bi-polar disease for a few years now. I've had difficulty in concentrating and in learning new things. I've had super low moments that I sometimes feel like just staying in my bed all my life and do nothing. I feel like I do not enjoy doing anything and thus doing nothing seems to be a better option than struggling to live. But God doesn't allow me to wallow in my depressed emotions. He will always use people around me to remind me of the things I need to do, the things that I am capable of doing, and the things that I once enjoyed. He always tells me how to cope with my disorder. Thank God he uses my friends and family to tell me He doesn't leave me alone. And thus I can truly say, "With God, nothing is impossible and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me".

My 1st Bowling Tournament

I have never played bowling for so long. I really do not know how to play the game. I just know you have to throw the ball and hit all the pins at the end. Luckily, our company's Christmas Party this year includes a bowling tournament in the itinerary. I got to play bowling again. (The first one was at a mall with my High School friends). Prior to the game, i received a few tips from my Teammates. My first set was great! I scored more than a hundred and had made a few strikes. Maybe it was just beginner's luck for my second set was not as good. But either way we had a great time! Our team ranked 2nd among 3 teams. Not so bad afterall!

I am a Yes Man!

I've had some difficulty living these a life these past few days. My depression is at its attack. I feel hopeless again. I don't enjoy doing anything, etc. etc.

So, I told this to a friend and she advised me to watch this movie. I looked at the trailer. I was strucked by the dialogue " You are saying NO to Life and therefore you are not living"... Everytime an opportunity presents itself, you will say YES!" Then I understood why my friend wants me to watch this. It's to make me loosen up and just like the movie, make me say YES to life.

I am looking for ways to download the movie as of now. Can't wait to watch this.

Gaining Weight

I found a picture of me about 5 or 6 years ago. I just realized how much i put on weight. The picture was taken from a trip to Cebu when i was working in my first job.

Since then i probably had an additional 4 inches on my waist, and gained about 20 lbs. Now that i'm writing it down, i figured, i really do have to make some ways to shed off some pounds.

I just don't know why i gained so much weight. I have not been eating alot. I manage to control my meals to healthy proportions. Lately i only eat half a cup of rice during lunch.

I must admit, i have not had much exercise. It seems too much for me. My only exercise is the rare times i play badminton with my cousin for one hour. Too rare that in a month i guess we played just twice. I rarely do even a 5 minutes exercise on the treadmill.

Perhaps i do need to push myself to doing some exercise to lose weight. My, it's too difficult to do. Every morning i force myself to wake up to go to work and now i still have to do some exercise???? God help me.