Back on Track

I feel like I'm back! Thank You God!!!

Today i started the day really low. I actually thought of not going to work. I was glad I didn't follow my feeling this morning.

I was busy the whole morning. I got to finish a few things early and then my brain seems to be working today. I got some ideas for the planned supplier audit. I feel like I'm getting my rhythym back. I was really really glad.

Thanks to my youngest sister too. She proved that the distance between us will not hinder the two of us from being sisters, from supporting each other no matter what. I love my sister very much. And i really do miss her alot. Good thing we talked through email this morning. At least i know someone listens.

LOST

I dunno what has gotten into me. For the past weeks I seem to be complacent and seemingly not wanting to do anything but the routinary stuff. Updating, reviewing documents and ensure they are archived and linked to the correct devices. I told during my job interview that if this work would only be mostly clerical in nature, i would not accept it. But now that I was in my 6th month at work, I seem to like the clerical part and not the facilitator of improvement part.

I am an addict for improvement before. I initiate things. But now, I feel like just going with the flow. I hate it. It seems that my brain is not working anymore. I hate the fact that I don't want to exert effort to do other things aside from my routine. To think that I'm getting bored with my routines.

This is not a good sign. I've got to find my rhythm back. I've got to think outside the box. I've got to be my old self in that sense.

I want to always be a FACILITATOR of IMPROVEMENT. Got to learn, got to think, got to act.... NOW!!!!

Letting Time Go By

Monday, the start of a whole new work week. It has been a much better day than most days prior. I had a productive meeting and is looking forward to another meeting tomorrow. Hope to learn alot tomorrow.

But like all the other days, I was not busy. That's why I have time to write a blog today. I'm not happy with too much idle time. I wait for the day when I would be busy again. I wait for the day when I have another thing to do after I finished one. Or the times when I would have to monitor my schedule to make sure I alot time for each activity.

Oh busy days... how i miss you. Hahaha. (Quite ironic for most member of the workforce where people long for a breather from daily tasks).

But like a previous colleague said, enjoy these times. Because when work comes.... it doesn't just rain, it pours. :)

On Getting Married

I'll be turning 30 next month and I am still single.

Should I be ashamed or proud of that?

Ashamed. Ashamed of not being able to attact members of the opposite sex or not being able to keep them interested. For the last 29 years I have had just one boyfriend. A long distance affair. Maybe its the distance that made him love me. (If he ever did.)

Proud. Proud that I have accomplished alot of goals while I'm single. Proud that I can do things on my own.

Was I too proud? Maybe I am. Was I being looked up and people feel I'm unreachable? Some say so. Am I too choosy? That's what other people think but I'm really not. I just want somebody who I can talk with about anything under the sun. Doesn't need a masteral or PHD to do that.

Alot of person will be happy to know that I'll be getting married soon. It's like they're waiting for that announcement. But darn, i don't even have a boyfriend. The pressure is on. But will I let this get over me? No... I should not. But one thing i can't deny. I am running out of time and I don't have control over my fate. God, it's all up to you. :)

Wedding Tayo, Wedding Hindi

I watched this Filipino movie last Sunday with my Mom (since i can't find anyone who will join me in watching the movie and because I want to have a good time with my Mom). I am a fan of Eugene Domingo and I like Toni Gonzaga.

The movie is definitely a comedy one but one that is witty as well. The story basically showcases the hardships of married life and the hardship of planning for marriage. Although the protagonists were both female, the story also talks about the things that males ponder upon about the topic, especially when the woman they love and their mother doesn't get along well (which i think i normal in marriages in the Phils. and probably in the whole world). It's just not easy for men to choose which side they'll go with and its probably more difficult choosing to be in the middle. Marriage life is pretty stressful. Maybe that's why I'm still single. (What a way to rationalize not having a husband). But I'm pretty sure its one adventure i would want to take sometime in the future (if God will allow me to.)

To the writers and people behind this movie, Good work!

New Life

It's the first time i ever opened this blog again.

Reading through the things i have written here before....I can't help but ask why in the world did i ever wrote these things down. It made me realize one thing. That i have grown up, mature in a sense, that now i can just laugh at the things I've been through.

Life has been very good to me. 2007 I was diagnosed clinically depressed. Battled my way through that phase. Was able to find a good job after that and now an even better job. The Ups and Downs of this life had given me once again a reason to believe in God and in His promise. He really does know everything. I need no more proof to show how much He loves me. His grace will always be sufficient.

Thank you God!