On Getting Married

I'll be turning 30 next month and I am still single.

Should I be ashamed or proud of that?

Ashamed. Ashamed of not being able to attact members of the opposite sex or not being able to keep them interested. For the last 29 years I have had just one boyfriend. A long distance affair. Maybe its the distance that made him love me. (If he ever did.)

Proud. Proud that I have accomplished alot of goals while I'm single. Proud that I can do things on my own.

Was I too proud? Maybe I am. Was I being looked up and people feel I'm unreachable? Some say so. Am I too choosy? That's what other people think but I'm really not. I just want somebody who I can talk with about anything under the sun. Doesn't need a masteral or PHD to do that.

Alot of person will be happy to know that I'll be getting married soon. It's like they're waiting for that announcement. But darn, i don't even have a boyfriend. The pressure is on. But will I let this get over me? No... I should not. But one thing i can't deny. I am running out of time and I don't have control over my fate. God, it's all up to you. :)