Friday, January 02, 2009

On looking back and insights for 2009

Happy New Year!

Every new year i look back to the year that was and hope for the best for the coming year. This act has been habit.... more like an addiction... that i can't help myself not to do. I think its just human to kinda reflect abit of what the previous year had brought you and what you want to do for the present year or the future years to come. New year resolutions is not a thing for me... not just because i never really get to do those resolutions. (hahaha). Today i learned of an even more important question to ask myself.... "What's my LIFE PLAN?"

Last year was a roller coaster of emotions for me brought about by alot of changes.

1. Change in physical condition..... I had my 2nd operation January 15 last year. I had to do it as my 1st left arm surgery was a failure. Screws loosened and another operation had to be done to put bones in place. About August my humerus bones have not grown, which according to my doctor is kinda delayed at that time and suggested another operation. That time, due to lack of financial resources and the avoidance of another long stay in bed after the operation, i insisted on not having that and give my arm more time to grow. The doctor agreed and luckily, about October, my arm showed signs of improvement. The bones are not completely attached together though until this very moment, but hey, the future looks bright for my bones. Its still giving me the pain though, specially that the weather now is really cold and my arm hurts when its cold. But I'm getting used to it. :-)

2. Change in emotional condition.... On this aspect, i have not done so much progress. Still missing somebody that after all these time without any communication, not a single phone call, not a single message, whatsoever, still occupies the same spot. I think its gonna take some more time for this stupid girl to move on. That's me.... I guess I'll have to live with the pain a little longer. I do believe that the only cure for a broken heart is to find another person to love. Whoever you are that God created for me... please hurry and find me.

3. Change in career.... Well... after finally getting out of the Japanese company i worked with for 5 years and became an ISO consultant afterwards.... I joined an American company middle of August 2008. So far so good. I'm enjoying my stay there. I had the chance to go to US but with the pending immigrant petition i have... the consul never allowed me to have a non immigrant visa. So... within our group, I was the only one who was not able to visit our Office in Richmond California for the training. Had to learn all the things I have to know through net meetings and phone conferences. I managed to be doing exactly what the company wants me to do inspite of the mode of training we had. I guess I do not need to go to California in the first place. That.... was not part of God's plan.... at least not yet.

What's my Life Plan for 2009?

Well...I plan to invest on a car or a house and lot next year. That's my ultimate goal. Probably get a loan to pay for the initial payment and have the rest of the cost paid through montly installments / ammortization. I want to have my parents move from my grandmother's house and have the peace and quiet neighborhood without jealous aunts and uncles around. Or.... maybe i would have an apartment build so the family can have additional, steady income.

If God will allow it, i want to have a stable relationship with "The God-Sent Guy". Note....I didn't say "Mr. Right" or "The Perfect Guy". I like "The God-Sent Guy" best. I've had enough of looking for "Mr. Right or Mr. Perfect". I know i do not need to look. Cause, if God will permit it, He'll lead "God-Sent Guy" to find me.

All the best for 2009!

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