Life and Death

I didn't know who Steve Jobs was until yesterday when I heard the news about his death.

I'm not a techy person so I usually don't give a damn about the industry. (Ironically, I'm working in an IC Fabless company now.)

Anyways, reading through some quotes from Steve Jobs in facebook made me insterested to know about him more. One would be awed as to how Steve Jobs lived his life. A college drop-out and yet managed to put up a one hell of a great company, Apple. Was struck by a challenge when he got kicked out of his own company but managed to put up another company, Pixar, another one successful venture. Makes me wanna think that perhaps there are people meant for greatness. People who knows what they want and knows how to achieve them. At an early age he knew college will not help him know what he wants to do. He followed his heart. What's pretty amazing is he understood what his heart wants. Me, i dont have an idea. Being diagnosed with depression i feel like i cannot trust what i feel, so i cannot trust my heart. Just like now. I feel like i dont like my job anymore, so i sometimes think about quitting again. But in the absence of any alternative, I stay with this job, hoping that everything will turn out fine and this feeling is just part of my being depressed and in time, with the help of medications and counselling, this will all go away.

I envy Steve Jobs' life. I feel like he has accomplished what he came here to do. He left a mark into this world. I wish i can be the same. Maybe not as spectacular, but at least i want to leave a mark. A mark i can call my own. A heroine in some sense. Perhaps not to everyone but at least to the people I've been with. I hope I could find my own greatness. Know what i want, what my heart tells me to do before i leave this world and die. Just like Steve Jobs, and live a great life.